| 摘要: | 國內著墨於個人生命史質性研究日漸蓬勃，筆者所探究對象為一位台灣婦女，藉由研究過程，仔細探究其生命中遭遇的困境及解決歷程。本研究對象也是一位教師，一直以堅毅的生命力面對生活中的各項挑戰，而此有其一定緣由，將其二十年的生命脈絡呈現出來，會是豐富台灣生命史研究很重要的一個區塊。但是筆者另一重點是請大家直視在台灣還有一群依然傳統的婦女，她們的婚姻角色，她們的妻母神話是建立在何種關係之上。研究對像扮演著女兒、大姐、教師、妻子、母親等種種角色，能扣住許多和她相同處境的女性。筆者希望透過探索其文化脈絡的軌跡及母職再製的過程，讓大家能注意到婦女的角色呈現歷程，以及引起社會關注到台灣婦女的多重角色衝突，關懷束縛著許多台灣女性的那道無形枷鎖，且唯有女性重新發現自己，才能讓女性重新檢視自己的生命價值。研究發現獲致以下結論：壹、 研究對象自小生長於大家庭，重感情、倫理、家族榮耀，重視家庭倫理教育的長輩，加深其家庭觀念的深耕。貳、 繁密的家族成員是其豐厚的社會資本來源，同時也是背負著家族壓力而同生。參、 研究對象的奶奶、母親都是維護父權最力的角色，連帶使研究對象「任勞任怨」、「勤儉持家」、「忍受丈夫的壞習慣」。而在喪偶之後，開始正視到自己的想法，過自己想過的日子。
Responding to the bourgeoning life story study in Taiwan, the author attempts to document a Taiwanese woman’s troubled life and her negotiations with these troubles. The subject of the study is a teacher who faces various challenges in life with fortitude and determination. Analyzing her 20-year life span will enrich the research of life history in Taiwan. In addition, the study calls to attention the role played by traditional women, especially in marriage, and to the type of relationship on which the wife-mother myth is constructed. The subject of the study simultaneously bears many identifies—she is a daughter, an older sister, a teacher, a wife, and a mother, echoing and sharing the life experience of many other women. Exploring the cultural context and the process of mothering reproduction, the study sheds light on woman representations, the various conflicts embedded in the multiplicity and complexity of woman identity, and the invisible fetters of social conventions superimposed upon women. Only by rediscovering their inner-self can women re-evaluate and re-live their own lives. 1.The findings of this study show the course of the self-empowerment of a woman. Growing up in an extended family, the subject is indoctrinated with many traditional family values, including the emotional bonds among family members, ethics, family glory, patriarchal hierarchy and so forth. 2.Although the closely-knit kinship relationship is a great resource of social capital for women, it also brings great pressure to them. 3.The fact that the subject’s grandma and mother are gatekeepers of patriarchy has implanted the notions of endurance, frugality and tolerance deeply into the subject of this study. However, in her widowhood, the subject comes to listen to the voice of her inner-self and realize that she can live whatever lives she wishes. |
