本研究主旨在探討罹癌醫療專業人員面臨自身死亡的生病經驗，研究者採取詮釋現象學的研究方法為取向，同時以梅洛龐蒂的身體存有學為後設理論，進行分析三位研究參與者的生病經驗述說。 疾病入侵使得病人身體圖式的改變，且生病經驗為主觀的知覺經驗，是屬己無法述說的內在感知，尤其是癌症患者面對死亡所造成的時間感、空間感轉換。此外，每天最靠近病人的醫療專業人員，對於疾病所造成的身體心理的傷害，有著多少的體悟，去貼近病人受苦的心理。 本研究藉由醫療專業人員的病身兩重性的身分，揭露面對死亡的臨終患者，身體知覺的混亂以及臨床醫療照護的觀點差異，同時反思護理的關懷本質。 The main purpose of this research is to explore the sickness experience of medical professionals who fall ill with cancer and are confronted with death .The researcher approaches this issue with methods based on Hermeneutical Phenomenology and the body ontology of Merleau-Ponty as the meta-theory, to analyze the description of three participants' sickness experience. The change of the patients' corporeal schema caused by the intrusion of disease and the subjective sensational experience of being ill, are both undescribable inner perception especially the shift of the sense of time and space which happens to a cancer patient when facing his death. Beside, it is also under observation how much realization of patients' suffering can come to the mind of such medical professionals, who get close to patients every day and observe the physical and mental damage done by the disease. This research takes the viewpoint of the double identity of the medical professionals who are sick. They reveal the different observations which happen between fatal patients who go through chaotic physical and sensational perception, and those clinical medical care-takers, so as to reflect upon the essential caring of nurse.
